today. i struggled to wake up in the morning. rushed my ass to meet zj for ktv at kbox, lot one. i saw zu er again. second times in less than a week. singing was ok, bad throat and all make it hard to enjoy. sang lots of songs. chinese to english. jay zhou to westlife. after that. we went to the gym. half way thru saw lj. went home around 4.30pm.

dunno what came over me. i did something, which maybe i shouldn't have done. only have myself to blame. self-induced pain. can say i'm dumb and foolish. can say anything. anything. i will still be me. words can't say how i feel. nobody will understand me. unless u been thru what i'm going thru now. if not dun say a word. cause i wont listen and it makes no sense.

"eh weiyang have fun". i've long forgotten the feeling of having fun.

it's been raining since the day you left me.

i dun want to pretend no more cause my heart can't take it anymore.